Broken Lullaby.

The best thing is just to do nothing, see how things pan out. Someone’s not worth it if they won’t continue to fight for you. I won’t jump into anything, I want to know someone before I jump into bed with them, doing that doesn’t make them respect you and its not a solid foundation for a relationship, nor is dishonesty. You won’t read this, and you don’t care like I do but I can’t stop my brain from thinking about you. If you knew this it wouldn’t change your feelings or lack thereof. I’m writing this so i don’t have to think about it anymore, and I can go on laughing at my freedom and happiness which is a better kind of happiness than you have, because I am happy within myself and don’t need to feed off anyone else to achieve it :)

dearoldlove:

Even while you enjoy other lovers, you still have my love. Ain’t that a bitch. 

I have nothing to offer

I used to be your perfect girl

My mind is split.

you’ve killed my love

you’ve killed me inside

you’ve killed my appetite

but I can’t blame you for how you feel

I will wait as long as it takes

I do and don’t want to be your friend; I do because I want to talk to you and you just be there for me, but I don’t because it hurts that there can’t be any attachment.

It hurts because the day you chose her, you said you loved me and treated me like you did, and made love to me like you did, but she’s more important

and it hurts that I can’t tell my parents, no matter how much I just want to say it, I have accepted that it’s over but I can’t let go.

It’s come at the worst time, I can’t focus and next week I’m in my house on my own, a week before my important exams and I won’t be able to do it.

The positives are that now I can work on myself, I don’t have to worry about what you think any more, and that I don’t have to bother with anybody because love isn’t real and relationships suck.